ok another diary entry for today. cannot stop thinking about the film shiki-jitsu. need to rewatch it. the girl reminds me of my past self + it breaks my heart into a millionbajillion pieces. sometimes she's still sooo me

i am the biggest idiot known to man and each day I REGRET ALL OF MY DECISIONS KKFDSAJIOFDSOAfjidoasj whatever u do don't be like me and try to argue with your landlords I GIVE UP!

theory of a Young Girl and i am the Young Girl. i love girl lifestyle and performing as girl and turning myself into some sort of human spectre. i love makeup and clothes and the like. when i'm alone i'm kind of like a child tho. anyways i showed my webbed site to a friend and she said that this site is a childlike escape. i think she's right

no dopamine in brain right now. very alone. hurthurthurts. sick girl sick girl SICK girl. i might Break soon i may Feel It.

talked to dr and got re-evaluated. the audhd is real. but we already knew that LOLOLOL

2day i burned 4 pieces of bread. 7 burnt pieces of bread in the past 24 hrs. yea tht explains my mental state. sumtimes it feels like i blink and BAM day over. girl failure is a LIFESTYLE

have been having health problems nd i'm stuck in-freaking-side unable 2 be upright for extended periods or do any work. so STAGNANT reminds me of my hikkineet days. mindbodysoul unhappy with me. hospital-chan destroyer of health immediately need mana

born to be EMO forced to be MOE

everyday i think about idols. every darn day and it makes me so emotional. because i love them so much. yea

i saw miku YEAAAH ! everyone was nice and sweeeeet there and i brought my pet leek. went 2 kikuo show too and lost my marbles. i love escapism nya

lots of new life changes! broke out of the tatami galaxy, cut off my long hair, enrolled in school, and living a more private life in general. i got a new job yeah i guess u could say i'm a SALARYMAN no eating dirt for me.

fresh new start for my diary! rip to all my previous entries. yeeeeaaahaw pardner